The distant rumbling woke me up.
Lightning seared the sky and the thunder was loud enough for me to imagine that the world was slowly being torn apart by immense hands.
Not for the first time, I felt scared.
The window was open. The rain was carried in by the wind and it was leaving a huge puddle in the carpet. Nanny was going to be very angry tomorrow.
I suppose I should have gone over and shut the window, but I couldn’t think of walking across that dark room, all the way to the window at the opposite end. I was scared of the monsters who were, I was sure, lurking under my bed night after night; all in the hopes of catching me off my guard.
I pulled the blanket closer and curled myself up as tight as I could. Outside, the storm raged on louder than ever.
I wanted to call out to Mummy and Daddy but they were gone. They could not come back and hold me in my arms and smother me with their love. Daddy would never tuck me in to bed and Mummy would never come and wake me up with a hug again.
I was left with the nanny. I had no relatives left they said. So I was an orphan. And they sent me to live with the nanny. The nanny looked different every time and I could not remember her different names so I just called her Nanny.
Nanny did not seem to like me so much. I thought she felt I was useless. I just lazed around the whole day and stared out of the window, but I had lost so much. How could she not understand?
I suppose she was just paid to feed me and help me change my clothes.
A particularly loud crash outside made me jump. The wind had picked up and whooshed through the neighbourhood making an eerie sound. I crept still closer to the covers.
If only someone would walk in thorough the door and give me a hug. I would feel safe. I would feel wanted. But the people I loved the most were just memories and corpses now.
I felt lonely and small.
But I guessed it would be over soon. One day the monsters would get me and I would have no choice but to go and meet Mummy and Daddy.
I would like that.
After all, who in the world has time for an 80 year old?